I was catching up on my blog reading and while doing so came upon this post from Danielle over at Sugar Blossom Boutique about being a mom, and doing our best to make sure we are doing it right.
There are a lot of things I don't know about motherhood. But these things I know for sure.
Motherhood is a commitment.
Motherhood requires patience.
Motherhood requires love.
Motherhood is unselfish.
Motherhood requires sacrifice.
Sacrifices of time.
Sacrifices of money.
Sacrifices of energy.
How true are these words? I highly recommend clicking on over there and reading the rest of this post, if you haven't done so already! While I was reading Danielle's post, I was thinking about my own mothering style, as I tend to do pretty frequently. Being a young single mom, and raising my daughter without her sperm donor (as I like to refer to him) is definitely a challenge. I am constantly asking myself if I am doing things right, or if I should be doing things differently.
Is the reason that she's about to turn four and still sleeps with mommy really because I don't want to deal with the fighting (from both her, and my parents) or is part of it that I feel guilty kicking her out of my bed, when I'm all she's got?
Do I discipline her a enough? Do I discipline her too much? Does she spend enough time outside? Do I spend enough time doing teaching activities with her? Do I spend enough time doing fun activities with her? (On that note I'd love any ideas on easy DIY's to do with little ones!!)
But, when I really sit down to think about it. When I really pray about it. And look at my little girl, and the way that I know she knows she's loved. I know I can't be doing too bad. I am doing my best with the cards that I have been dealt, and yes, some days it's extra hard, and all I wanna do is go take a nap and catch up on the hundreds of hours of sleep I've missed out on since becoming a mommy. But mostly, mostly I realize how lucky I am.
I look into that little face and realize the gift my God gave me. And all the questions fall away. I am doing the best that I can. And that's all I can do. And the fact that I worry so much makes me a good mom. Because it means I care. That little girl is my whole heart, and I can't imagine how boring my life would be without her. She saved me. And I just hope that I can live up to be the mother/role model she deserves.
Also, I'm linking up with Hollie at Hollie Takes Note for Follow Friday.
Hop on over and make some new bloggy friends!
I'll be doing so later today. :)