Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Sometimes I just want to scream at the top of my lungs and put my fist through a wall... But then I realize it would be pointless, because I have no control over this situation. So now I get to sit back and watch it all fall apart and hope that there's still something left of you when it's over... And I'm afraid there won't be. I'm afraid that the next time he'll finish it, and that we'll all have to face the consequences of your decision without you.

Thursday, October 20, 2011


 Yes I just hashtagged my blog title. :)

So, in case you were unaware, today is Spirit Day.
And in case you don't know what Spirit Day is, it is a day that we as a community get together and raise awareness and show support against anti-gay (LGBT) bullying by wearing purple. And, this year, by "purpling" your Twitter or Facebook photos. (here). And, of course, share the meaning of the day through those same sites, or on your blog, if you so choose. If you want to know more about Spirit Day, GLAAD has some interesting articles regarding the meaning  behind the day, which you can find here

I just wanted to take the time today to share this with everyone, and let as many people know about today as I could. I'm not trying to throw anything in anyone's face, I just think it is important to raise awareness and stand up for one's beliefs in any way that you can, so that's what I'm doing here. 

This day is very close to my heart. I have, and have really always had, a lot of gay friends. And I have seen some of the things that some of them have had to go through because of it. And it's not okay. It's not okay to treat someone bad because you think there is something wrong with the way that they live their life. I myself was the brunt of a lot of lesbian "jokes" when I was in high school, simply because my best friend happened to be a lesbian. I'm not the person to let those kinds of things get to me, and I'm straight, so it wasn't really a big deal for me, at the time. But, when I look back on it now, I think how awful it would have been for me if I wasn't straight. I can't imagine being penalized to such an extent for who I am. I've never had to face discrimination of any kind, that was aimed at me personally. And this is my way of trying to empathize with those types of situations. I think it is important that we stand together as a society and rise above the hate, and the ignorance, that causes people to act out in mean, hurtful, and violent ways against people, for no reason other than they do not understand them. 

It is important that we realize what our words can do to a person, and the consequences of our actions. 
So that's my PSA for the day.
Have a great Thursday everyone.
And don't forget to where your purple!!! :)

Monday, October 10, 2011

Men vs. "Men"

What gives a "man" the idea that he is indeed a man?
What makes him think he can put his hands on anyone?
What makes it okay to leave marks and bruises on another person,
Let alone a woman.
And better yet the woman you supposedly love?
I want to put the disclaimer out there that this post is not about me or the men in my life, but about someone very close to me.
Someone that, when I found out what happened, I wanted to cry, and when I got home I did.
I punched a wall, and screamed out loud at the fact that someone thought he had the right to lay his hands on her like that. I walked laps around the house and tried to calm myself down.
I attempted homework so I would stop thinking about it.
But I can't stop thinking about it.
I can't stop worrying about it.
I can't help but be afraid that this wasn't the last time.
I pray to God it was, but it scares me to know that there's a chance it wasn't.
Because see, I've been in this spot before.
I've had that friend that got beat up and went back.
And there's nothing anyone can do about it.
I like to think that with all of the support the person going through this now has she won't go back.
She appears to be done, and I thank God for that.
And I thank him that it's only some bumps and bruises, and nothing worse.
And for the fact that she let us all know what happened and didn't try to hide it.
I thank God that she has people who love and support her so she knows that this isn't okay.
And I just hope that once she comes out of this, she finds herself a real man.
Because all she's had in her life is "men" and if you've only ever had a man, you may not see the big difference here.
But let me tell you the difference is, in fact, big.
And it's easy to fall into "loving" a "man" it really is.
Finding a "man" is easy.
But finding a man takes time, patience, and faith.